It isn't a Super Hero.

Rise and shine.  That was my motto for the day.  Well, my actual motto had a few choice words in also but remember... I am not being negative on here.  I rose... I am shining.  I just got home from picking up 30, yes 30 snicker doodles at this awesome little bakery called The Daily Bread on Broadway.  Because Justin is my child and everything HAS to be difficult, he wanted snicker doodles delivered to his classroom for his birthday party.  Remember back in the day when your mom could make homemade cupcakes for your class?   It probably cost about $1.99 for 48 cupcakes and that included the frosting.  Well I can tell you right now these snicker doodles DID NOT cost $1.99.  They didn't cost $10.00.  Nope we are talking upwards of $37.50.  I ordered a coffee when I was there and they threw that in for free... But I ate one of the snicker doodles and let me tell you...  even though they aren't in any way, shape or form as good as my snicker doodles, they are pretty good.  I am impressed and the fact it puts a smile on my baby's face makes it all worth the money spent. 

On to the next.  I took the boys to the bus stop as I do every morning.  The three of us always have a conversation while walking there.  Today's topic was eye color.  The boys have the most fabulous blue eyes.  They got them from their father and pretty much the entire Jacobs side of the family.  I carried these small little curmudgeons for 9 months and they resemble nothing of their mother or her side of the family.  Anyway, eye color....this is the conversation:

Justin:          "Mom, how come your eyes aren't blue?"
Me:              "Because my eyes are green. That is what god wanted my eyes to look like."
Justin:          "Why?"
Jaymeson     "My blue eyes have the stars in them."
Me:               "Yes they do."
Justin:           "Mom, You are the Green Eyed Monster."
Jaymeson:     "You're not a monster, you are a beautiful princess."
Me:                "Jaymeson, thank you.  Justin, is that a bad thing?"
Justin:            "Well, it isn't a good thing."

The bus then arrives and that is the end of that conversation.  I have been thinking about the Green Eyed Monster since then and have been wondering what it is.  I was thinking a super hero.  That would be awesome if my almost 6 year old thought I was a super hero.  Upon returning home from the above mentioned cookie joint, I looked it up on google, which made me feel guilty because I was listening to a thing this morning about how people now-a-days are "dunces" because we don't know how to use books anymore.  We have our phones and can just look it up.  ANYWAY, The Green Eyed Monster.....  There are many ways to describe it and it isn't a super hero... but the most common way is referring to jealousy.

Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, particularly in reference to a human connection. Jealousy often consists of a combination of presenting emotions such as anger, resentment, inadequacy, helplessness and disgust. It is not to be confused with envy.

Since I feel like Justin has "old soul" qualities this kind of makes me sad.  I used to be a very jealous person.  Can he sense this?  I grew up, moved on and only let jealousy come into my life occasionally and I quash it very quickly.  Nothing good can come out of jealousy.  I have 3 sisters.  Could you imagine if I let jealousy control me?   I think it made me sad also that The Green Eyed Monster isn't a Super Hero.  Justin has to do show and tell with something that begins with "S".  I was thinking that I could be his Green Eyed Monster Super Hero.  Guess not. 

With that, I am going to walk to the bus stop to get my second born child.  I am hoping today he doesn't want another baby brother or a pony today.  I don't think I will be able to handle the fall out.